Monday, June 4, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEE!!!



Yep - that's how old I turned at 0956 local time today. I don't have major issues about entering my 30's... ok, maybe I'm lying but I think maybe I'm just overthinking the whole 30's bit.

I had a great dinner at home with famliy last night. It's just nice being around the people you'd choose to be with in a nuclear bomb shelter. I felt very thankful to have them around. And making sure that everyone was eating well was a good distraction from thinking about leaving my 20's. But they still crept in as I lay in bed last night.

My thoughts:

- I never envisioned my life beyond my 20s. As a small kid, I wanted to be a big kid. As a big kid, I wanted to be a teenager. As a teenager, I wanted to be a 20-something. And that's it!

- I am exactly the age my dad and favorite aunt were when I was born. I don't feel anywhere near as "grown up" as the adults seemed when I was a kid.

- Even if I have a lot of crappy responsibilities to remind me that I AM a grown up, I don't feel grown up. Then again, being an adult sucks in so many ways, there's a part of me that wants to stay young... I know, too late.

- It is time to move out of my parents' house.

- I always thought I'd be done having all the kids I wanted by the time I was 30. (I married at 24...)

- Where the hell does the time go?

- What if there's nothing fun and exciting to discover anymore?

So there...

In spite of all my little anxieties, I'm not really panicking about having to leave my 20's behind. Getting a bit sentimental maybe. All my friends swear, turning 30 is the best thing that could possible happen to a girl. I believe that to be true. DH and I were out one night last week and the place we were at was dripping with these painfully self-conscious 20 somethings. They were wearing what they perhaps thought were trendy outfits but they looked so uncomfortable in them - and in their own skin. I definitely wouldn't want to stay at THAT stage of my life.

So with a bittersweet kiss I bid my 20s farewell. I'm thankful for all the incredible blessings in my life. And (with a hefty push), I look forward to what the 30s may hold. Happy Birthday to meeeeee!!!

7 comments:

Baby Blues said...

Happy Birthday Momcaster!!!

Sorry we missed dinner. My baby, Mr. Kite, is down with the flu. It started with a bad cough yesterday. He stayed home today and I'm taking care of him. It's hard when he gets a flu, it might trigger his asthma.

30 isn't that bad. Although the list I want accomplished before turning 30 isn't complete yet. But that just gives me something to look forward to.

Bea said...

Yeah... done with having kids by 30... sigh.

But happy birthday! Many happy returns etc.

Bea

Samantha said...

Just catching up from being out of town. Happy birthday! I naively thought I might at least be pregnant by 30, didn't happen for me either...

Good luck with getting started with the IUIs. I know what you mean about how things suddenly seem to happen so fast, despite the 2 years of trying. Seems to be the way with ART!

Reproductive Jeans said...

Happy Birthday to yooooooooooou!!!

Hope your 30's are GREAT!

Buchiko said...

Happy Birthday RTT!!! Glad you had a good one. Time does fly, I can tell ya. But what's important is you stay young inside. Hugs!!

Irene said...

Happy Birthday, Ria!!!

Keep knocking 'em dead! ;p

SaraS-P said...

Happy Birthday!

I got married at 25. I knew I'd be in grad school for a few years, but I did think I'd have at least one child by now (almost age 32).

Funny how life can go against expectations like that.